Pamela Clark was born in London on October 15, 1945. She was cruelly taken from us at the age of 66 on 22nd March, 2012.
She was my first love and I hers. We loved deeply and with passion. Family circumstances tore us apart and we trod different paths through life until in 2008 we were reunited. We found that though we cared for our families we had never loved another as we had each other and the flame burned as brightly as it ever had. We dared to dream of a second chance, a second shot at what we had been separated from 46 years previously..but it was not to be, likely it was never to be. Her cancer re-surfaced and she was no longer strong enough to fight it. I had to remain in the background as it was never our intention to harm our respective families but it's been incredibly hard hiding my suffering, my grief, my tears, my dark moments and my smashed heart. I visit her grave as often as I dare. Her husband is ever near as are her children and grandchildren and we must be so careful. In the four years we were together we loved on a different plane. There was no physical intimacy when we were reunited in 2008 because both of us thought it wrong but nevertheless our love for each other was unbridled and if one can have the passion without the sex then we had lost none of the original! But now she has gone. Year 1 without her comes tomorrow. It has destroyed my life and I long to be in the spiritual world with her. She believed strongly in Guardian Angels and I know she is now mine. If true love endures beyond the grave then we shall be together for all time...why must my loss hurt so desperately? We were the "meant to be" together couple that was never meant to be and that is a heavy burden to carry. She is beyond pain now. If there are angels she must surely be one. She was so beautiful not only on the outside but more so as a human being. She cared so for her family and ultimately for me. They inscribed her memorial "simply the best" but those words though heartfelt didn't come close to how she should be remembered. Pam my first, truest love. We shared the ultimate gift that you could give a man and that will never be taken from me. It was given freely and with a full heart, a heart that remained as full to the moment you left me. I'm so sorry for not being there for you, not understanding, being so young, so carefree that I lost sight of the prize we had in our hands. My love for you can never wither, can never die. It will endure for so long as the heavens exist....