So very much loved from the time we met behind an upside down newspaper! Pamela will never be forgotten not just in my lifetime but others as well. She once asked me to respect Alan and I found that very hard but I understand her wish now and I do respect him for the way he cared for her. Nevertheless, our love never died, it burned with a ferocity that would never let it go out. Re-ignition in 2008 was instant. You can't kill a love that intense. My heart weeps for her. A loss so unjust, so unfair and so sudden. Her memory will never die and perhaps her sould will search mine out when I die. Mine will search for hers through all eternity and never give up. I learned to love again and found a girl who loved me as much as she did...I am blessed for that but my first love will always have that something we can't put a name to. Today in 2012 Pam left this world. Worst day of my life for sure. I miss you every day Pam. I love you every second. May the good Lord care for you and I'm sure he added you to his angels. Until we meet once again.......